let go to receive

I let go of something that I did not know I was holding. It was holding me back. God heals and when you experience it you know it is God. I thank God for healing me. I have received God's healing and forgiveness before and I will again. Giving up the hurt and pain to God is necessary to replace it with Love, joy, peace...
I'm free - No more wondering in the desert - This week I filled out divorce papers for a man I've not lived with for 12 years. (no laughing)
This is only a symptom of the pain and hurt that directed my path but no longer enslaves me. My past does not determin my future. Phil 4:13 I can (and will) do all things through Christ who strengthens me. It all seems so clear now. What I should do and how to proceed. I'll be putting out resumes and talking to my boss about changing my work load and redesigning my position. More pay etc... NO more weekends etc...
No more planning time now is action time - Stepping out in faith time!
Thanks to all who encourage and pray!

I'm awake

Is 5.5 hours of sleep enough?

I tried to go back to sleep. I lay awake thinking, thinking and thinking. Some good thinking - some sad. As thoughts roll sadder - I get up. Better to read scripture than to remember hurts of the past. I think their gone but they come back. I forgive all of them and lay the burdens of my hurt at the feet of Jesus. I feel relieved and my load lightened. I can't go forward if I'm weighted down. I want to go forward and fulfil the plans that God has laid out for me. I'm thankful to God.
I find comfort in Psalm 19 all of it but particularly in 7,8 and 9.
7 The law of the Lord is perfect, restoring the soul; the testimony of the Lord is sure, making wise the simple.
How often do I complicate matters with my own perception(negativity)? not too often anymore but maybe still too much in certain areas. It is comforting to know that my father in heaven's law is perfect. I can trust in him. My soul is restored.
Thank you God that when I'm awaken you are there, when I hurt you comfort me, when I'm celebrating you are there rejoicing with me. Amen
With God as my strength 5.5 hours of sleep can be enough.