Feeling less than adequate

A landmark event is about to occur in my life. I can't stop it from coming. I can't avoid it. I can't delay it. I can only accept it. I'm finding it hard to enjoy it or see the positives in letting it happen. I tried to play it down as not that monumental but it is and it will change things in my daily life. Oh have you figured out what it is? I'm not telling yet so, hope you figure it out. It has already caused some personal reflection and altered my perception of my life. Not in a good way! So, I need to stop letting it affect me in a bad way. I guess I'm having a poopy party - I know I'm tired. I feel inadequate in all parts of my life. I wonder why I can't hold myself together like others do. They work longer hours have little children. I'm at work 5 days a week and school and other stuff 4 days a week. My days run 8am to 10pm out. I keep asking God for strength and to hold me up. I really want to finish this course. I have a young adult (TanTan) watching.

The event comes and it will make its changes the little ones and the big ones. A little check mark in a box, a little wrinkle on your face and another candle on a cake what diference does one more year really make. Stop looking back, look forward. I already know what the past looks like. Yup! Yup! Time to end this poopy pity party and jump into the future. Celebrate and embrace what God has planned for me. I've laid down my life for God. I feel inadequate about that too. Good that God is more than adequate.